Take a look at yourself

Last night I looked at myself in the mirror.  I looked like shit.  I look tired, bloated, plus I've been fighting a cold lately and I've had the runs for this whole week.

I told myself "no more".  No more crap food.  I looked myself right in the eye and I promised myself that I wouldn't do it to myself any more.  Its not just me I have to think about, and I really don't want to put on too much weight this pregnancy, I'm not willing to go back to my 100+ kg self. 

So today, I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast. Not perfect and I didn't enjoy it, was an uncle toby's plus one with cranberries or something - so damn sweet!! I still can't stomach most things, but I am thinking of doing a grain free cereal and having mostly fruit, some tablespoons of yoghurt and some tablespoons of that on top.  And maybe that will be ok for me and not make me feel like throwing it up.  So I'll have to make that grain free cereal I was having while I was paleo.  Or I found some muesli at Aldi today, so I might try that first....

Morning tea - I had some of the sweet & salty nuts that I made from this recipe.  And some bites of healthy oatmeal cookies that I made from this recipe (with some changes).  I didn't have all wholemeal flour so I used about a third of a cup and the rest spelt flour.  I changed the oil to coconut oil.  Didn't have any molasses so I used maple syrup instead.  They turned out ok I think!  Plus I cut up a bit of orange, apple and banana and had that in a bowl that both Speedy and Bubbles shared with me (shared meaning they bugged the shit out of me until I gave them some too even though they had previously already had theirs...)

Lunch - I was going to have chicken soup that had been chilling in the fridge, but I looked at it and went noooooo so I put it in the freezer instead, and had a tuna, cheese and spinach toasted sandwich.

Afternoon tea -  I went to have some more nuts, and wouldn't you know it - the bastard ants that live here had gotten into my container and ruined them all!!!  I could have cried.  Damn it!  No more nuts today.  So I had some of my biscuits that I made.  They were pretty damn tasty!!!  And then I made some homemade chocolate.

Dinner - Spaghetti bolognaise (or however you spell it!).  I make mine pretty simple, grass fed lean beef mince, onion, grated carrot, sweet potato and pumpkin, tomato passata, some tomatoes cut up and mixed herbs.  We have ours on zucchini noodles instead of pasta.  Also made it in the thermomix which was new for me, I don't do a lot of "cooking" in there, just use it for smoothies and dessert type things or to make paleo type things, so it was good to use it for something else. And I had a handful of grapes while burning TWO more lots of nuts.

Dessert - ice cream.  So not that healthy but I can't just chuck it out, its gotta be eaten ya know.  Elf Man served it up and he's a bit stingy with his servings so it was only a small bowl.

Supper - cup of tea, some more biscuits that I made, and some chocolate.

All in all it was a good eating day - even though when I went to get petrol this morning I did have a brief thought of buying a small bar of chocolate, I didn't go through with it.  Small win for me!